Went to finally upgrade my phone today after six years of having the same one only for Verizon to tell me that because I am not on the account I am not allowed to upgrade my phone without the accompaniment of the account holder. Lucky me that all of my family no longer lives in Rochester, so this would be impossible. My dad about to hop in his car for a five hour drive had to set me up on the account via phone with Verizon only for them to then tell me I can’t upgrade because there’s an outstanding balance on the account. The one day I can actually afford a phone thanks to there being a sale and then I cannot. Thanks universe. After that adventure I decided I wanted to go and retouch a photo I shot back in June, only for my keys to the lab to be missing out of the locker they were stored in.
Two negatives to the day must mean there are two positives - so here they are. In seventeen days, I will be driving to Buffalo to see my grandma and then shortly after be hopping on a plane to see Jason in Maine, and hopefully (I better be) this time shooting some of the things I prevented myself from shooting during my prior trips. It will be a nice trip, even if it’s not 100% beach weather because it marks officially three years together. The second positive is I started working out again this evening after two weeks of not doing so and before that week another two weeks. I was doing so great before the end of July and even though it was just forty minutes of pilates, it’s progress.
Captured by talented Gustavo Zylbersztajn, Paolla Rehmeier becomes a goddess in Moikana’s summer campaign. In picturesque Portugal, Rehmeier wears high slit dresses, exotic swimsuits, and of coursed adorned in some of the most eye catching jewelry.
i spent a good part of my august in maine seeing my boyfriend, basking in the glory of the coast, and primarily suppose to be working on my work so that i can graduate from college. however, that last part didn’t happen so much. more than ever before, i feel like i’m just at the short end of the stick and that stick just keeps getting shorter. i’ve been a mental wreck since graduation in may and as summer went on, it just kept getting worse and worse. it’s come to the point for me that the smallest thing will set me off, i’ll cry for hours, cause myself massive migraines, and that’s just a few of the not so good things i do. i feel bad for jason, i don’t think he quite knew how to handle me. i mean hell if i would’ve been in his shoes with a mentally distraught girlfriend i probably would’ve broken up with me and told me to go home. the point i’m getting at, that i keep avoiding to tell myself is this behavior is unacceptable. all of this brings me back to where i was three years ago. i didn’t like it then and i don’t like it now. my behavior is doing me harm in more ways than one and just like then, i feel the way time gets swept away from me. i lost track of summer and spend no time outside, didn’t photograph, see friends, etc. my trip i set goals for myself, but i couldn’t even get up in the morning to go shoot, the exact same actions i did for the past month with going to the gym. of course not keeping a schedule, i’d over sleep, not shoot, not be motivated, etc etc etc, and in one case get to the location and be so beyond frustrated that i found every little reason for my vision to not work.
i focus so much on the negative, that i need to get a smack in the head and learn to focus on the positive and let that outweigh all the bad. so here it is, all the good from the trip: iced chai lattes, beautiful ocean water, shark swimsuits, delicious organic pizza, drinking downeast cider on a dock, throwing rocks at a wall (even though one ricocheted into my face), walking the trail of Ogunquit at sunset, and standing on the beach as the tide came in over my feet. My heart literally ached when I left the East Coast. I don’t know where I belong to settle down somewhere. I love Rochester and I’ve never found a place like it, but I need to relocate in order to get a job. New York City is where I see myself going, but I know my heart would be so much happier being on the coast, except I have a lesser chance of finding work for what I do.
I’ve got to say, the only good thing of being back was seeing my dad and getting dinner. Beyond that, I just don’t know.
Three of my favourite things in one photo: #mermaid , lobster traps, and of course #sharks !! Saw this guy on the side of the road headed towards Old Orchard Beach and I made Jason pull over so he could become my new best friend! 🌊🐟 #maine #marcusselfie
Dynamic duo Mert Alas and Marcus Piggott come together to photograph Rihanna for September 2014 W Magazine. Paired with a couple of wolves, Rihanna gets animalistic with furs and wild jewels styled by Edward Enninful. What are your thoughts on this editorial?
When everything happens to you when you’re so young, you’re very lucky, but by the same token, you’re never going to have that same feeling again. The first time anything happens to you - your first love, your first success - the second one is never the same. September 16, 1924 - August 12, 2014